Returning from the Quest

I just came back from a 4 day fast in the desert with a dear spirit sister. I went out with the intention to find stillness and resonate in love, loving kindness, peace, and the ever-welling up joy that is our fundamental nature. The desert in November is a gorgeous place to learn stillness...I felt on some levels like I had actually entered the underworld. A lot of grief surfaced. Dreams about letting go, the pain of conflict and judgement in the context of contrasting beliefs held between my mom and I. The beginning of the dying of the limiting thought form that this world would be a better place without me...thank god for that!

Traveling to Japan this summer (mareinjapan.blogspot.com) was very healing. living at a temple there for a month went a long ways towards healing the wounds I experienced around monastic life in Thailand. I also discovered how much killing there is in farming and vegetarian living...I had gardened before, but I was pretty ignorant about what goes on day to day at a farm...enlightening, really.

I put down ACIM and my twelve step work when I went to Japan back in June. I traveled in Cali for about 2 months upon return. Nice to integrate with friends and family. More wounding came up. I returned to the Utah desert to vote, quest, and hopefully roll on to CO; and there is so much love in Wayne Co, I've lined up house-sitting gigs through mid-January and I'm working on crafting a life that resonates as truth for me. Falling into the arms of God through friends and red rock and doggie-love and horses... started working on my book again last night. daunted by the process at this point, but feeling ready to delve in again.